14 September 2017

Naked Heat Palette Swatches And First Thoughts.

Well DAMN Urban Decay have done it again and released a quite literally smoking hot eye palette that I needed in my life. I have every other Naked palette apart from the basics so of course this one was on my list when I saw the promo photos on their Instagram. Now I know you've probably seen every blogger and their cat post about this palette but obviously I have to join, at least I've tried to wait for the hype to die out a little.

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Naked Heat Palette Swatches, Naked Heat, Urban Decay Heat, Naked Heat Swatches

Just look at those shades, seriously. I've already used the palette a few times and I am truly in love, the colours are so warm and pretty and even though it's a summer themed palette the colours are clearly perfect for an Autumnal look with the red and brown hues. All of the shades compliment each other no matter what you do with them, so as long as you blend you can get a gorgeous eye look even if you're awful at applying shadows like me.

I have to admit, I'm obsessed and I'm sure I'll be using it on the regular. Hats off to Urban Decay because they've done something really unique and it's perfect. I cannot wait to see what they come up with next.

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02 September 2017

Chatting About August

September, nice to see you. So I have a lot on my mind and thought what better than to do a little recap over the month of August and talk about all the crap that has been going on because it's been a bit of a roller coaster.

So to start it off I settled into the new flat with Mum. After returning from holiday it was time to move in, build furniture and make the place a home, so August was the month we both really started to settle in to our new home.

I have also been really focused on my new role at work. Not something I've spoke a lot about, but hey I'm now a Team Leader which basically means I have a lot more to do but it's keeping me on my toes and I'm enjoying it most days.

I decided to break up with my boyfriend. This should be a big part of August, but honestly I just don't have any large feelings towards it, I feel free and happy, maybe a little confused at to what went wrong that made me fall out of love and want to end a 9 month relationship, but guess that's just what life throws at you sometimes.

My cousin got married which allowed me to reunite with the biggest side of my family, including my Dad whom I haven't see in nearly three years. Safe to say it was a little weird but things soon settled into normal - including me faking smiles and pretending I cared about what he told me *rolls eyes*

So that's my August, it's been all over the place and I am looking forward for Autumn to really kick in so I can start wearing baggy jumpers and dark lipsticks all over again.

28 August 2017

Dessert In A Jar

First off, I blame Instagram for this. I was quite happily scrolling through and up pops a yummy dessert in a Masonry Jar that looked far too tempting. Anyone that knows me will be aware of my huge sweet tooth so it took my brain a matter of seconds to get the idea to make one of these jarred treats for own satisfaction.

Just in case you fancy recreating it yourself here's the list of yummy ingredients:

Chocolate Brownies - Crushed, used first to layer the bottom and also added halfway through.
Vanilla Ice Cream - The most important, used to layer after the brownie and inbetween with a large scoop for the top.
Malteasers and Rolos - Used in between layers and to finish on top.
Chocolate Sauce - Let that go everywhere.
Mini Chocolate Doughnuts - For the top to make it even more yummy.

Whipped cream on top would have been perfect but I just forgot to pick up some up, but hey, there's always next time..


07 August 2017

I Don't Talk About Mental Heath, So Let's Talk.

Mental health awareness is everywhere and it's definitely grown into a subject people want to talk about but no matter how many statuses, posts or videos I see about the subject I just struggle to get involved. Like many I have grown up surrounded by the negative stigma of MH and it hasn't helped being in a home where the subject is so misunderstood that my Mum says people with depression should "get over it" and anxiety is "stupid" as if it can be turned off with a switch.

I know that the majority of people do understand mental illness and mental health but I just have never been able to express myself properly. The reason I've decided to open up and write this is because I had a bit of a shock when my close friend spoke to me about his mental illness and said "you don't understand" when the reality is I do, I've just been so closed off about my own MH not even my closest of friends aren't aware of it. I honestly feel like there's so much I want to talk about it but I'd rather not have an essay so I guess I should stick to the basics.. whatever the basics are.

I find it hard to work out where it all started because it was quite a while ago and the memories are hard to put to a time frame. The earliest I can remember this all going south was when I was 13 being dumped my first love, collapsing on the floor in fits of tears followed by my Mum telling me I was overreacting. Within the next few months I went into a downward spiral, I started self harming because I couldn't imagine life without him and eventually it stopped being just about him; lying in bed sobbing scribbling on paper about how everything went wrong when I was 8/9- my Grandad died, my Dad left and my rabbit died. Even now I can't believe a triplet of events so horrible for that age happened so close together.

Time went on, I met new people and did new things - some bad (we'll keep that for another post) and some wonderful. I think it took me a long time after I started hurting myself for me to think about the term depression as I didn't understand what it really meant and I just thought I was pathetic. I remember taking a dozen online surveys that tell you if they think you have depression and they all flagged up with urgency, including my own GP's which led a phone call that I of course ignored.

Years down the line and I have still never seen anyone professionally about this and I don't think I ever will - shout at me if you want but that's that.

I have days, sometimes weeks where I can't think straight and all I want to do is sit in my bed and cry. I get in situations where my mind goes blurry, my entire body shakes and I feel like my heart is pounding out my chest. The difference from when I was 13 to now is I understand what my body is doing and why it is acting up - I just wish it wouldn't.

04 August 2017

Majorca Pictures Galore

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31 July 2017

Guess Who's Back (Back Again)

It feels so damn good to be here writing a post because I can finally say shout; I HAVE WIFI AGAIN! At the end of June Mum and myself put a deposit down on a gorgeous flat and after I returned from my sunny holiday in Mallorca we got our butts in gear and moved in, it's now the end of July and my Virgin package arrived in all it's glory, allowing me to get very frustrated with the mile long wires that make me feel sick just looking at them, but I am finally sat on my laptop with The Michalak's playing on the TV remembering what it's like to be in touch with the online world once again without texts telling me how many gigabytes of 4G I have left.

I feel like I'm talking to an old friend with so much to tell, so let's start with the whole new home thing. In my mind it sounds a little odd to say I'm renting with my Mum, usually your first rented property is on your own or with a partner, maybe even friends, but nope not me - though I definitely count my Mum as friend. I won't go into the details because 1) it's complicated and 2) I don't fancy telling the world the ins and outs of my our personal life, so let's talk about how huge my bedroom is because I literally have so much space I don't know what to do with it.

I'm not going to share photos on here as that will be a separate post when my room isn't a work in progress. My favourite spot in my room so far is 'work space' area, it's where I plan to sit down and blog, edit videos and even do a little work if needs be, all without the habit of adjusting my position on my bed a dozen times like I always have done and currently am doing due to the issue of no chair for my desk yet, anyone would think I'm picky.

The rest of the space in my room is slowly getting filled, I've just bought a storage unit for my bedside and I have a large chest of drawers for most of my clothes. I have a built in wardrobe so didn't need one of those and of course I have my lovely bed, but I currently have a big space the opposite side of my desk that sits empty. I would like a place to store make up and beauty products, but I also want a unit with shelving so as you can imagine I'm finding it pretty tricky to find something that's right but I know I'll come up with something.

Now I've told you a little about the flat; ok my bedroom, I'll talk a little about what's been going on with me. I finally have full time hours at work and I'm now what's called a Team Leader. My own Team Leader handed his notice in and I saw it as the perfect opportunity to go for the role, safe to say my interview went pretty damn well. Safe to say the new flat and the new job role means everything's going ok! I just need to get my head on and start blogging again because damn I've missed it!

01 July 2017

10 Thoughts Now Pretty Little Liars Is Over

I'm still confused.


But seriously, how did the Moms escape the basement?


Twins are just evil.

American's brutalise the English accent.

Sooo.. what do I do with myself now?

I don't even remember what happened in the first season.

Addison can stay missing, I'm not wasting more time.


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